for me :)

Taqdeer mujhpe meherbaan hai
jis shauk ki yeh daastan hai..

usne bhi shayad yeh paigaam suna ho
mere geeto main apna naam suna ho
durr baithi woh yeh jaan le
meri awaaz ko pehchaan le..

Awesome song.Everytime i listen to this kishor kumar song,i fall in love with him :)

Beauty lies in...

There is madness in perfection and creativity in incomplete. But as long as there is originality, I enjoy the music. I leave my paintings incomplete if I lose that flow of....err feelings? Better be incomplete than be perfect because there is a catch 22 situation here. You try to complete your painting(even after losing interest) just to make it look complete and perfect. What you get is a complete picture but you are left with an incomplete state of mind. That is fooling yourself. So leave it there... you should know when to stop, when to start again (if at all you will)...I haven't been as much bothered by my incomplete paintings as with those I completed with force. Some of them are so beautiful to others, yet I don't want to have a second look at them. I cant tolerate them.They are a mistake for me...a mistake in the process. And therefore they bring dis-satisfaction. I am attracted to perfection, since I can never be so perfect. Look at any artist who is passionate about his work, the process is always important to him/her than the outcome. It's like when you look at the output, others are just looking AT it. But the artist recalls the process, and it makes her feel beautiful, complete.

Studying stlyes

A trainer had once picked me up along with others from a crowd of 40 odd people after spending some time with us.She said i was kenesthetic..i dint know what that meant.She said something like "kenisthetic people learn by feeling things" .After googling i now know there are four types of learning ways,only one is predominant in us-visual,auditory,tactile and kenisthetic.

Kinesthetics cannot learn by just listening or seeing,they need "to do" things physically.They need to first act and then understand.Sounds cool? No its kind of stressful..because we dont have teaching methods that support such kids.Explains why i had so much trouble in classroom learning in early years of life.

There is so much that will decide how your kid fares in school.Its really upto you to either leave it to their class teachers or understand the ways of your child and help her/him.If the kid has tendency to get restless or drop things just to move in his/her seat-its a sign that he or she is kenesthetic.

They also may listen to music while learning or studying. It is common for kinesthetic learners to focus on two different things at the same time. They will remember things by going back in their minds to what their body was doing then.Can grasp concepts when abstract theories are combined with practical experience

Read on more on this interesting site on Studying style..
http://studyingstyle.com/three-learning-styles.html

How to make a poem rhyme?

If hare was to jump like a frog
and snake was to bark like a dog.

if there were no lights in the lane
would you once dance like insane?

When will you stop behaving like a teen?
Your hair colour makes my head spin.

Enough of your inky pinky ponky,
its career you're chosing not a donkey.

if i could sell all my possessions in heaps
why would i live in an apartment so cheap?

Can i make you an omlet for breakfast
since you dont remember what you ate last.

Last time i told you one-liner so nice
you gave me the expression of rolling eyes'

Mom said if i had a child whose dad was clever
i could have taken a leave from my job for ever.

See the irony of this artist next door who cried,
He bought new brushes but his paints have dried.

Am i under any influence today?
No,its in my own spirits that i am gay

if you wondering why you're still reading this crap
go hit yourself on a hard rock.

LA LA LA LA

Run Run Run

Lynyrd Skynrd-Lovely lines,for you A! ;)

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

I want to travel :)
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My exams are going on and my frinds/parents look more tensed than me. LOL.For one,my idea about exams have definitely changed.I dont give a damn about them anymore.This is not a BOLD statement.Nor am i flunking in my exams to be saying this :P

Just that i sometimes feel the need to rebel against the way our minds are conditioned.I suddenly have started hating the way i do things.My real test now is to see whether i am capable of changing and moving forward.Education has made me too rigid.
I need to break free,especially from the kind of fear that comes from being in situ (or stationary).
Only then will the learning come.
Only then can i enjoy my doings.

You have to run run run,
to remain in the same place.(Alice in Wonderland)

It always works :)

'We are still friends,so what if we are out of touch.'

A very positive conversation with a good friend brings this smile on my face :)
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Have u ever noticed how some people manage to make you feel so positive just by the use of right words.Or should i say by the Avoidance of certain kind of language that makes you feel negative.It comes with only efforts.I would like to have such a way of talking.

I like to be around positive people.Positivism moves in concentric circles,it wont hit you directly,you feel it coming till it completely surrounds you.So try dropping the use of "Donts" and "buts".Use more of positive words in your conversations.It will slowly and surely make a difference in your attitude.

Keep it up friend!! ;)

Go play

13 hours of college.Add to it 4 hours of travelling.That was my Tuesday like. :)
Day started at 5.I never check what time i am sleeping :P

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Its a new day.I have a große(big in german) challenge before me of making a print ad for advertising project.ON A SHOE BRAND.Lets see what it turns out to be.I am working with such a varied mix of people.

Some are the planners of the nation,schade!!(unfortunately)they have to work for such a small project.They want to derive creativity through a planned procedure.They want to schedule whatever we are going to do,even if it is a fifteen minute activity.I am talking about an engineer.Then there are square pegs in round holes who get such great ideas but have no suggestions as to how to execute them.

Thankfully i believe and i have seen that all these random thinking processes by people do help in making a decision finally.As they say there is an order in chaos.Thats what excites me the most.Its less of a challenge,because we never thought as a child that Jumble looks "incomplete",it always used to be work-in-progress ;) So sippa hot Kafe(coffee) und Mach kein Sorgen!(dont worry) :D

Mumbai

I love Mumbai,it throws a lot of challenges at me everyday.What i like about this place is that people try to squeeze as much of your time,space and mind as possible.It's a city where people expect a lot from you;yeah even strangers!!Some of my outstation friends complain that the people here are heartless.But i guess we all are doing a lot of things to facilitate each other in our own little ways.You cant expect someone to show his/her heart when he/she is standing on one foot in a crowded train.The same woman who stepped on your foot and dint care to say a sorry in the morning might be seen offering her seat to a girl much younger than her after sitting through half of her journey.

My examples might revolve a lot around Railways because what the heck,i travel 3 hours per day by train,meaning 4 days in a month i spend in train.Believe me i have seen crazy fights happening out of nothing in the mornings.I dont know whether it is because of the logic that people become softer by heart in evenings,i have seen them doing unexpected unspoken favours to others.Like smiling at someone(ok that was excess of sarcasm)..but believe me strangers become friends so easily.Then there will be people who have no relation with you whatsoever,but from one look at you they decide you had a bad day and offer you a seat.This can happen in no other city but mumbai.

There is nothing we do because our heart says so,its because we get into other person's shoes only when possible or convinient to us(and thats the best thing one can do for other in this mad city).
Selfish? Naah.
Self-centered? Yes.You got to be if you want to survive here.
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Production Management Test i told you about in last blog was good.

I am able to take time off my schedule to blog,that must be an indicator that my life is turning less hectic.Cheers to that!! :D

TEst !!!

Tomorrow is my Production Management Mid term test.We were told by our professor today that anyoneone using a supplementary' will be NEGATIVELY marked to which i couldnt resist clapping,so did a lot of other people in my class. :D

I really like the pattern set by him.Write to the point,no bullshit no big explainations...
Reminded me of my 10th std boards,when i understood only one funda of writing to the point answers.We never had "Short notes" to deal with like State Board.What i understood after going to State board and almost flunking in my Eco test that "Short notes" do not mean short;on the contrary,you are given marks on the basis of length of your answers.

Although its an open book examination, our dear prof in his very charismatic style of speaking,has made it clear that we will get screwed by the paper he has already set.So lets see what we have on our desks at 10am tomorrow.Passing is not a goal anymore for anyone of us.I just wish i am able to attempt all questions because i have for a change studied the subject!! :)
Tell you about it tomorrow.Bis dann,Tchuess!(Till then,goodbye)

Just what i needed :)

It was saturday evening around 4:30.After 6 hours of stats and research methodolgy,i bunk my accounts lecture.I walk up to Marine drive alone while the dark clouds are hanging there,they look so dense and so heavy.There is a lot of crowd at Marine Drive.Its just some fresh air i need.And maybe with the help of it,some clarity of thought will come.Last few months have been an eye opener;i had enough opportunities to realise that i dont think too clearly about most of the things.I have been taking the privelege of being an ambiguous person for too long and how i just manage to express myself!

One day you come to know that most of the times you were not expressing your thoughts too well.All this while,you thought you are expressing,but others dont think so.You just managed;maybe because you were around with the same set of people always who know you too well to misunderstand you.Its good that atleast i know what is happening.What i do with this knowledge is of second importance.(Ofcourse i will do something about it..)

So i spend some 40-50 minutes sitting there-reading; looking at the sea,clouds,birds,rocks.I suddenly felt like a child again.When i was a kid the best thing i liked doing was "nothing".I used to do a lot of it then.Gazing at far off objects.lying on grass,sitting on swings...Thinking of it now,it used to be a kind of meditation-Spending time not doing anything and more importantly not feeling guilty about it.

That makes you feel so light.Its like you are the non-bottleneck machine who doesnt need to be on roll all the time just to utilise your full capacity.
Excuse me for that example,i have been reading Goal by Goldratt.

I have been so hungry lately.Perhaps because i take short meals and get hungry again in couple of hours.So from Marine Drive,i went to Barista and ordered stuff and continued reading.I ate my heartful,read my mindful,paid the bill and walked out.Along the footpath at the bookseller,as a matter of habit,my eyes happened to gaze upon the titles.There it was "Stay hungry,stay foolish."I laughed in my mind thinking its so apt for me.Except for the other meaning of "hungry".

It was a nice start for my weekend.I hope whatever time i have,i make good use of it,even if it means doing nothing ;)I had my 'things to do' next week planned at Barista,hope i manage to do it all,"well".Idea is to feel good about what i do.

I headed for home.It was a fine evening :) just what i needed!

What have you learnt today?

One of my professors raised an interesting question one day.Ever wondered what is the difference between "study" and "learning" processes? Its one word answer."Application".
So however well your teacher has managed to teach you a concept, you have only been sucessful enough to 'study' it,with best examples if you want to add.

You can be sure that you know it or have learnt it only when you are able to apply it.
I am yet to learn a lot of things. :)

Who am i?

When i had nothing more to lose i was given everything,
when i ceased to be who i am i found myself,
when i experienced humilation and yet kept on walking,
i understood that i was free to choose my destiny"

Wonderful lines from Eleven Minutes,Paulo Coelho.

Tag

1.What is your current obsession?
Collecting songs.Listening to them when possible.

2. What are you wearing today?
I was wearing chudidaar in daytime.Now at home pajama n T shirt.

3. What’s for dinner?

Fav.Masoor dal and mix veg.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
Morning breakfast :P
A dozen of lose sheets.

5. What are you listening to right now?

Hai apna dil toh aawaara,na jane kispe aayega..

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?

It was more of an open invitation from Andy.She is my best friend.Do i need to say anything else? :P

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Marine Drive for all good reasons.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?

Scarf,sun-glares n sunscreen(if i go outdoors)
skirts and pajamas indoors.

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

Japan

10. Which language do you want to learn?

Chinese,Mandarin-one of them if the two are different! :P

11. What’s your favourite quote?

"Never take any Quote at its face value."

12. Who do you want to meet right now?

Oscar Wilde.

13. What is your favourite colour?

Olive green right now.

14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet?

Pink shirt.

15. What is your dream job?

Start up.Cant share the idea.

16. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?

Would make it my ATM money and would have a blast this weekend.

17. What are you going to do after this?

Assignment.

18. What are your favorite movies?

Guru.50 first dates.PS I love you...

19. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?

Gmail,yahoo,american rhetoric,Amazon,Blogger,google.

20. I believe in

Now

21. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)?

Shop or borrow.

22. Coffee or tea?

Tea from boiling pot.Coffee from machines.


23. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?

Go out alone.Avoid people and go to some open space if possible.

24. Favorite Sweet?

Chocolates

25. Favorite Season?

Winter

26. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?

MAggi since its 2am right now :P


27. What are you afraid of the most?

Off late i have observed a stage fright during presentations.Hope its just my bad luck or temporary.

28:What brings a smile on your face instantly?

A silly or genuine compliment.

29: My most priced possession.

Friendship and love.

how have you been?

hello again...
its been so long between now and then
how have you been?

i find some time i look for my pen
is that too lame?
i havent written for long
that puts me to shame.
do you feel the same?

when i cross the road with 50 or more
i feel so tiny i feel so alone
and when i see a baby cry for a toy
i know what it is like..

I look out of train and i see a mountain
its at a distance all green
i wanna go hiking
are you too game?

just tell me something
dont you ever wish you were someone else?
but then someone smiles at you
and tells you never to change..
how does it feel?

have you ever got so cold
that you missed being held
is there a reason you walking this way
you dont know where you are heading today?
do you feel the same?

uhmmm...

I feel i have lost the little interest i had in writing.
uhmm...let me tell you whats been happening in last two months.i am into an MBA program.and i am still trying to get used to it.
travel more than 4 hours a day. attend 6 to 9 hours lecture.
i eat when i get time and i sleep whenever i am home.
i meet my girl friends whenever possible and all i do is keep complaining of the little time i have to sleep.
Putting aside the less interesting things..let me share you the beautiful parts which are very interesting-
1.Making it at time for 8 AM lecture.Is it a challenge? Ohh ya!! Geting up at 5 Am when u sleep at 12 or 1 is itself one!
2.Deciding when n where is your next meal.Its mostly dabba or gaylords or Satkar.
3.A motorbike travel from thane to churchgate to make it to the lecture.Thanks Vikram,it was memorable one.
4.How can i forget the Fussball game that is THE only recreation i have sometimes.
5.Sorry for putting things in point,but some very interesting presentations i have seen in life were made by profs on PPTs.if i write in paragraphs now maybe it wont interest you.
6.Btw speaking of PPTs,we must have seen 50*2 atleast a hundred of them.ATleast.But thats not interesting,believe me.This is just a fact.
7.The good times i have with my Train Gang..they are the most interesting people to travel with.If you are walking from churchgate to VT,such interesting conversations shape up.More on it on my next blog(ooo ya suddenly i have a lot to blog!
8.Marine Drive.It is at amazing proximity.You know i observed something some days back.People who are on mumbai darshan have a new favorite.The Trident.Saw a family stop a cab to click pics in front of TRIDENT.they posed and then they got into cab and left.i was pretty amazed at that.
9.Yesterday i was coming home.saw lights everywhere..its a good feeling.I believe its difficult to remain low or feel left out during diwali.it is by far the best festival!
10.When i come hom at 11pm i am dead tired even to have my dinner.i think the best part of my journey back is the Cadbury's smell that enjoy on Thane flyover.This is one good memory that hasnt changed over years.It makes me smile like a kid again :)

Day tripper

I know I know...Its just too amazing to be posted here.
Its a new form of art called "Leyman's Art".
I am sorry,this is not up for sale yet.Some years later maybe..when ppl start understanding its value. :P

Reading

I was never so much into reading.I have developed that habit over last few years.
I have observed that in last two years i have barely read fiction.
Since reading came in my life quite later as a habit, my fiction reading period was also short.Then there was a time when i used to read two books at a time,a strict combination of fiction and non-fiction.Now i am only invited by Non-fiction books.It has become easy reading for me.I will probably have to take efforts to read a classic.

One thing i like about non-fiction reading(i read biographies of businessmen) is that its a nice way of learning through others' experiences.An autobiography is a way of living through one's experiences,which is any day more exciting than reading some story which is part truth part imagination.Without further justifying my choice of NOT reading fiction,i will get to the point.I am trying to bring some variety in my reading.So this next month i shall read all kind of books,fiction,...non fiction...classic..contemporary.all colours and shades!!


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I showed a letter to four people today.As a part of formality they were needed to read it.I was surprised to see how much time each of them took to actually read it.In one of the cases i started counting from 100 backwards to kill time!!
If people at managerial posts take so long to read a piece of information,i wonder how they manage to do other tasks??Its a good way to test a manager i think.

Write for your sake!

Write something today,for its the way of connecting your thoughts.Thinking is a gift,when you put it down in your own words on a paper;it becomes a religion.

I am not a supporter of religion nor do i oppose it.But i do know that writing down your feelings help.Specially in two cases:
1.When you are aware of something that is in your mind.
2.When you dont know what is in your mind.

The third case where you are in between knowing and doing;trust your mind.So getting back to what i said earlier,putting down thoughts in words is becoming sure/rigid of your ideas,thats how most of the religions came into being.Quoting your thoughts is not a sign of conservatism.Its being true to yourself.

I have gone back to my older posts/diaries and found thoughts there which i will most disagree to today.But i dont regret having written them.Its just shows that i have been open to changes in my thought and attitudes as i grew up.

Write something you felt about yourself,about your loved ones.Write it daily.

Someone commented after going through my blog that i was putting out a part of myself through these posts.Wasnt i becoming vulnerable?I wonder how,keeping your feelings hidden is a sign of vulnerability.There is nothing weak or vulnerable about expressiong yourslf,your love,showing affection.Love is an ability and not a choice.You learn from your mistakes.You accept them and they are no longer mistakes.I have made terrible mistakes and i have moved out of them..and i am still trying.

:)

:)

Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.
hmmm...ya it makes me wonder!

Consumer's call

i am not unsure;
the world is too sure.
There is perfect competition
and perfect assumptions;
and perfect criticisms.
Watch my actions
They are the only imperfections
proving that i am human
and not just an idea of a
rational consumer.
What you consider selling points
keeps me from using your product;
THE thing about it you forgot to highlight
i go around sharing on Facebook.


I think the idea of "rational consumer" is given undue attention even as a theoretical concept.The phrase should be just banned from Marketing and Economics textbooks,as it severely restricts the imagination of a manufacturer-in-the-making.

(I like the new Coke add.No atrangi avtaar of Aamir for a change!!)

And a very innovative tagline "Coke ke saath Dost free"
After seeing the add wherever i go and see the huge words on canteen stalls "THANDA matlab Coca Cola" i think of this new add.Its a cool transition from the old "Thanda" concept and has a good recall value.

You cheat!

What a rag of cloth takes off a painting
And omitted words off a letter
You,my friend steal it
from my eyes unedited,
uncensored.

when i made God laugh

Looks like an interesting year ahead.Only time will tell, but at the end of two weeks and four days of 2009, i only get a feeling that a lot of excitement is in store for me.
Or maybe my attitude has become more of FOCG meaning focus on good things.

Some plans never work out.Some days turn out to be so exciting and adventurous,that both your hands fall short of fingers to count memories on.Last few days saw both cases, how plans fail and how excitement and company fail your plans,only to make it a more perfect day :)


Some timely quotes that came along and are stuck in my mind which best summarize my state of mind-

"If u want to make god laugh start making plans."
"Money is nothing if it cant buy you memories."
Indeed money is important, it buys you memories ,although it pinches you later to have spent beyond your limit.But who cares when memories are all worth it.

"Keep in touch" a much abused phrase these days.
But you just know they mean it when they say it.
And that makes all the difference!


This one i just framed :P
"Some waters are worth exploring.
for if you win you feel on the top of the world,
if you lose you still have a reason to celebrate."