Sunday, October 06, 2013

Love or Love?

A day will come in your life when you will recollect what an asshole you have been till some time before. By this time you have changed to a new person. One who lives like she’s seeing the world for the first time- rejoicing every day of being ‘single’ again. By now you would’ve moved on and walked on so many lines, turns and sidewalks that you would’ve forgotten that you are the same person who stood in front of the mirror with a long face and asked such morose questions - ‘God what is the purpose of this living?’ ‘Why so much pain?’ and ‘Why me?’ You would walk past by eye- candies and chiknas flaunting the best of your smiles and maybe add a mischievous wink if you think you is up to it. And the bliss remains. Until you see a friend who has had a break up some time back and you realize that you ARE the same person. And it all comes back in a FLASHBACK. Living in Denial phase for long time. Screwing up your diet.Calling off plans to meet friends and family. Calling off interviews. Calling off parlour appointments. Going off the Facebook. Off. Off. Off everything. Then if the close ones intervened, telling them that they are cold, little unfeeling mammals who don’t understand what being in or out of ‘Love’ means. And saying a few more rude things if they persist to take you out of your darkness. Swearing if they go to the subject of spirituality and ‘Whatever happens, happens for good’ sort of shit. The most unbelievable part is when you begin to lie. And lie as if you have not made enough of scene among your friends already. Lies, because, although your ‘Devdas’ avatar was noticed by the Oscar jury, it wasn’t even acknowledged by your ex. (and in your mind he is still not your ex). ‘I don’t care about him anymore. Do you think I care? I don’t give a damn’, says you in the afternoon. And then send him 51 msges that night. ‘I know, I had promised you I will not call him again,’ to your best friend, ‘but I really thought it was my last day of life and so I had to say everything I wanted to.’ Yes and many more such lies – the kind you that got you fancy pretty things in childhood. ‘Paa buy me this teddy because I get nightmares when I sleep alone.’ The point is- you are still that person. Only that after growing up you don’t get teddy when you want it. You may get it if you are lucky. But you may not. And you will have to find some other way to live without one, sooner or later. Sooner or Later. Yes I chose later in my case. Infact, I dint even choose it. It eventually happened- one day when the PM himself called. Yes the PM! He spoke (ya spoke) to me showing concern on how our economy was getting affected because so many capable youngsters like me opt for voluntary unemployment every year. ‘Don’t you understand it’s because of people like you that our GDP suffers?’ he said. Anyway that story can be covered later. But if I think of it now, I don’t know why anyone, so deeply in love or whatever it once was would have chosen ‘sooner’ in my place? Falling in love happens so fast. But growing up takes time. PS- Stats show that people who are ‘cool’, after loss of a relationship, take more than twice the time to come to terms with life and be able to perform everyday activities with their regular energy. Possible reason sighted- they live in denial phase for longest time as they find it extremely difficult to break down even before the closest folks.

Friday, June 08, 2012

Monuments

She has forgiven herself. it's been a long time now and she has managed to forgive herself. Else she wouldn't have met him on this day. She lives each moment fully, all her past becomes insignificant, every passing day. And if some day, without a hint, a breeze blows her into the past, she holds on to those chains of swing, that brings her forth with multiplied joys. This is one of those days, when she will swing back and forth. She will travel freely in her thoughts, into the past and back, with no pains, no shivers, just watching her thoughts, smiling to herself at times. She will work like other days, talk to her friends, of random things, and in the pauses between, her mind will do its job, of going to places in history, touching significant monuments, and returning back. ... it's a beautiful day. And it's a beautiful mind.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Angry Birds

Angry birds O Angry birds,
don’t you slip off my slingshot
I need to kill all those pigs
and destroy their structures too!

You the red one, round and heavy
I need to be too careful with you
If I don’t mind my angle before I shoot
you just go and bang yourself against the wood.

The blue ones are the tiny twitters
fast and swift they make it quicker
What else, they become 1*3 on their way
they ought to be my saviours today!

But these pigs are getting stronger each level
I guess t­­oo they’ve too much crap to feed on
Oh the yellow one comes to my rescue
Speed up like a rocket; c'mon knock the target head on!!

I have just played this far you know
but I am curious enough to see what’s coming next
Cant wait to see black birds explode themselves
and the white ones lay explosive eggs!!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Dream

A: How do I believe you are seeing it the way i do?
B: My eyes are open darling.
A: Now try to see it with your eyes closed

Your dreams are unique- no other person can have your background, your emotions and your experience.But thats what makes interpretating and sharing a dream so challenging.
I am seeing a lot of dreams lately.As a friend said- we all see lot of dreams but we remember very few when we get up.Sometimes we dont remember seeing them at all.
Last night I had a dream.There was a magical song in it.We both were little girls in our frocks.The sun was shining bright, not the scorch bright but pleasant warm sun. The dew had begun to melt upon the green green grass.We were in a park...no not a park...a meadow. Yea because the greenery was never ending as far as the eye could see.
Then I promised you something, my friend.
Remember all those fantasy stories we would share and completely fall for in the childhood? Yea that kind of promise. Easily made and quickly agreed upon. Never broken, never misunderstood.
So yeah...a promise i made to you. To show you something i'd just discovered and oh i just couldn't wait to share it with you.

I had a piece of paper of yellow tint and it had got tender with age. However, the soft words written on it in a mystical font, were fully legible. It looked like a page torn from an old Book of Magic.
The words were simple and sweet..like a nursery rhyme. Easy to remember and repeat after.

"Standing on green grass on a thursday morning,
let me spell a magic
A magic that can be shared
only with the dearest of your friends."


We checked was it a thursday morning? Yes it was.

"The sun is giving out golden rays
and the dew is melting under our feet
while the grass sparkles at the far edge,
the morning freshness is complete."


As we said these words together an amazing thing happened.
When we said each of these words, the respective things happened. The light around us grew golden for few seconds..the dew melted and the effect of light passing through the dew did make the grass shine more beautiful.

..The beds of roses are not just red
they have pink, purple and yellow too.

(respective bushes of flowers get highlighted in the same order- red, pink, purple and yellow)

Now we are getting excited..we continue to read from the paper..
“Walking a little further we see
A pool of water with water lilies
Catch them blooming all at once
In heavens you can’t have a better sight.”


All of it was coming true!! Marvellous!

A rainbow comes out on your left
Count the colours on it
Violet, Indigo, Blue, Green, Yellow and Orange.
Oh this time you’ll see red too!

And for the first time i saw the colour red in the rainbow, so clearly!

Please make a way for the crocodiles,
They are crawling towards their ponds


And the creepy reptiles passed by us but we were strangely not frightened by this. In fact our eyes grew wider and more alert. The spectacle that was arising each moment..
Arising and passing away..
Arising and passing away…
But nothing went unnoticed. Nothing got missed by our completely awake senses.

The fishes in the pond moving with agility
Creating ripples and bubbles as they move
And oh now the golden ones
Will come on the surface too..

A moment and a breathe passed, but no golden fish was to be seen. It was a small block coming in the way of the series of miracles. No golden fish yet??
We hoped and waited anxiously for the given to happen. But nothing moved. The water in the pond in front of us lay still. As if even the purple fishes that were randomly coming up now and then, upon knowing that two pairs of anxious eyes are waiting for some action, decided to remain safe at the bottom. Hidden.
What had happened here? The splendour had died a sudden death?
Did we do something wrong? I looked at the paper again…maybe reading those lines over slowly again will rebuild the magic. Slowly I spoke out-
And oh now the golden ones…
I lifted my eyes simultaneously. No movement. Nothing.
I told my friend. Lets read this together and I am sure something will happen. I repeated the line, with my friend this time.
Still nothing. And beating myself up to what had actually gone wrong, I woke up and sat on my bed.
I woke up?
Oh this was a dream!?! It seemed so real. The magic in my dream was so real. I almost lived it. Almost. It was the most beautiful dream I ever had! I wanted to describe this to you as you were there with me in the dream too. We were having such a great time together. But how could I have described it to you? Show you.. a video, a photograph, few words….or better all put together? Even if I try to attempt showing you with everything that I can, I won’t be able to make you feel the magic of those moments. Those priceless, mystical and seemingly never ending moments.. we lived them as they came to us . So pure, so blissful.
Living moments . Becoming moments.

How I wish I could have taken you along in my dream. Wish there was a SAVE or DOWNLOAD option and then a SHARE option for sharing dreams too..
You would have loved it then. Not just LIKE’d it or SUPER LIKE’d it. You would’ve probably lived it like me then.
Maybe my kids or my kids' kids will be able to SHARE dreams someday. :)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

The connect

You just know it
when its time to re connect with yourself
its the time for some self evaluation..

As said by a lot of our intelligent ancestors, the cause of dissatisfaction always lies within you.
Finance is a wonderful subject and i unintentionally keep relating a lot of concepts with my personal life.
Only a manipulator of Accounts really knows the fair value of the assets and liabilities.Outsiders can get close to fair value through their perceptions,which may be right.Maybe wrong.

You are the best evaluator of yourself.Because you know what jhols(manipulations) you have done in life, what probable opportunities you assumed as certain gains in life and of the losses(read mistakes you made) how many are justifiably your "learning experiences"..

I am going through this self evaluation phase and i got this realisation-
While you rate learning process and plot your growth chart almost daily, the hard bricks do fall on your head only sometimes; and you start taking notice..
and no i am not being hard on myself..i know very well this happens with us all, even with the surest being on earth.And i am ready for some tough "Internal Audit" myself.To do away with those jargons i mean to say i need to get hold of the ground for sometime now, firm hold,only so that i prepare myself well enough for the next flight few 100000000 mts above the ground :))

I might stay cut from the world for a while; but that means you will see me more active on my blog ;)

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Reading and Relationships

It made be read between the lines
Understanding
Made me pause at the difficult paragraphs
Patience
I had to read it daily
Commitment
Sometimes I interpreted it differently from you
Respect
It stretched my thoughts, slowly
Creativity
I dint like what I read today
Reality
I shared what I read today
Happiness
I had to take small 'breaks'
Contemplation
I could relate to this character
Empathise
I cried at the eighth chapter
Vulnerable
I could not stop laughing
Relaxation
I argued with my self
Introspect
I got too involved in the story
Interest
It gave me crazy ideas
Passion
It nearly crippled me to death
Fear
I saw a new hope
Reassurance
Sometimes I knew what I am going through
Sometimes I dint wish to know.

Saturday, December 04, 2010

A loser for love


A loser for love
He calls himself
He has no girlfriend
And the only one he loved is married
He writes for her new crush
He seeks the girl of his dreams
7/10 of his blogs read “love”
2 read “doubts” and 1 “clueless”
All he wants to know right now is
Is she a friend or something more?
Or something more!
She sees no point in telling him
“It’s just friendship”
For he again will doubt;
For his doubt is also the hope he lives with,
A hope of falling in love before this year ends.
He has been in love all this while
And still wonders “when shall I find my love?”
And I wonder- do you find love or does it find you!
It found me
It will find you too 

Sunday, October 03, 2010

The Subway

Walking towards my college,
I get into the subway mode,
That starts from the station
And reaches me across the road.

A sweeper moves across the stair,
A new hoarding is hanging up above.
They thought I wouldn’t escape it,
Reading Ads where I shouldn’t care.

I walk further down the subway;
It’s got a ceiling not too high..
Making me aware of my own height
I continue to walk..I heave a sigh!

I see some foreigners in ethnic dresses
Walking with pride and beautiful faces.
The fad for jholas slung across the shoulders
Has caught on them faster than on our races.

Then the smell of idlis-sambhar and dosas
Hits you in the middle of your head,
with oil and batter they make samosas,
to be had with paav-the Indian bread.

Love it or hate it
You can’t ignore it
This subway has it all..
a common man's wonder mall.

It serves you with some quick fixes,
Chargers, ties , pen drives, Bata boots and umbrellas..
If you need something urgent, you can buy it here
Don’t you forget to bargain with those fellas!

In evening while returning back
It gets a little crazier than this
They want you take home fancy stuff for your kids,
Mosquito bats, electronic toys with those lights, sounds o jeez!

It’s a miniature of how this city Mumbai works,
The citizens keep moving as they pay for time.
Distances and spaces are all measured in minutes
We lose some we gain some, but to give up is just not fine.

Friday, October 01, 2010

A Rose..


For the smile you brought on my face..
For the tears I made you cry..

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Just in love!

Looking so far
looking in deep
i saw your face
i saw you sleep

when i first flew
i dint see blue
you filled my heart
and i know its true.

What is insane
What is in sane?
what is far fetched
why do we stretch?

Come we'll seek a home
which speaks for its own
what we believe
all of that we believe.

Look at this tattoo
isnt it so true?
makes me feel whole
i wrote on my soul.

Darling please smile..
walk another mile
meet me where you stop
meet me where you breethe

Describe me what it is..
something beyond my reach
surprise me a bit
with a stupid figure of speech!

Live with you
Grow with you
See the world with you.
I do.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Yes please!

Let me not judge you by which institution you come from.Let me not get bitten by catch phrases like "love" and "beauty"

If you are in a youth organisation,its fairly appreciated by me -an organisation that markets,grows and publicies itself if needed.it sells knowledge-you have bought it,not earned it like your guru.

So please dont make it sound too spiritual.
Knowledge can be seeked alone and that's my way of seeking it.Its application-Seva as you like to call it is a default thing(as its definition goes) done even by my watchman's watchdog.We breathe invariably and since it's a karma,it's also a seva.

It's a business you got into,but i prefer to call it a hobby class.Persuing your hobby is the best way to seek spirituality.I do it too.Then I feel one with myself.I will join your Organisation the day it calls itself a "recreation" which has no face to it or a garland around.I am a complete enthusiast of Youth movements provided it goes along my interests and practices.

Its amazing the way we work.We become the jargons we use.Our thoughts get so limited by these jargons.If i say User and you say Creator-we may both be understanding it the same yet we continue to insist that my Word be the final.

Break free for a minute.Try to explain me what your purpose in life is.80% of you cant define it without mentioning the keywords that your Organisation has stored in your D drives.Your individuality lies in your commanality.That according to me is sad.
P.S: All these views are naturally mine and meant to express myself.No other intentions ;)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Wusshaa-All fall Down!! :)) :)) :))

One wrong step and you are down on the floor.Flat.In seconds..
You look to your right,to your left if anyone is looking at you.No one is.Thank god! You dont want to be seen by a crowd of 100 when you are on all fours,with Shahid Kapoor dancing on the huge screen before you.What an embarassing scene that will be!

But no one did.That gave me enough time to first slowly land on my ass and then see whats gone wrong with my ankle.A twist.Lot of pain.Koi nahi.Yeh toh bahut baar hua hai.bachpan main :p :P Right then i couldnt help laughing at myself,seeing my cousin LHAO.(its a form of laughing for those who dont knw :P)

That made me think, sheesh...i have really grown up.Falling down was once a part and parcel of my life.Like so many times have i hurt my knees, there was a little mud and scrathes on my legs at any given time.As if we gave a damn to it anyway!!
Whatever be the ground,we dint complain.We were happy as long as we played.
A playground would become more dearer and friendlier if it had tasted our blood.What a solid funda!!

Why dont we continue with the same spirits as we grow up.Why do i complain about my grounds now?Why the daily denial of realities.I had read in the Master Strategist-

"To win in the field is inferior to transforming the field.Which is inferior to moving to a better field.Which is inferior to not being in the field."

Read it again till it makes sense.It definitely will.I plan to print it in bold for myself :D

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

for me :)

Taqdeer mujhpe meherbaan hai
jis shauk ki yeh daastan hai..

usne bhi shayad yeh paigaam suna ho
mere geeto main apna naam suna ho
durr baithi woh yeh jaan le
meri awaaz ko pehchaan le..

Awesome song.Everytime i listen to this kishor kumar song,i fall in love with him :)

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Beauty lies in...

There is madness in perfection and creativity in incomplete.
But as long as there is originality,i enjoy the music.

I leave my paintings incomplete if i lose that flow of....err feelings?
Rather incomplete than be perfect because there is a catch 22 situation here.
You try to complete your painting(even after losing interest) just to make it look complete and perfect.What you get is a complete picture but you are left with an incomplete state of mind..That is fooling yourself.

So leave it there... you should know when to stop,when to start again(if at all you will)...i havent been as much bothered by my incomplete paintings as with those i completed with force.Some of them are so beautiful to others,yet i dont want to have a second look at them.I cant tolerate them.They are a mistake for me..a mistake in the process.and therefore they bring dis-satisfaction.

I am attracted to perfection,since i can never be so perfect.
Look at any artist who is passionate about his work,the process is always important to him/her than the outcome.Its like when you look at the ouput,others are just looking AT it.But the artist recalls the process, and it makes him feel beautiful,complete.

Studying stlyes

A trainer had once picked me up along with others from a crowd of 40 odd people after spending some time with us.She said i was kenesthetic..i dint know what that meant.She said something like "kenisthetic people learn by feeling things" .After googling i now know there are four types of learning ways,only one is predominant in us-visual,auditory,tactile and kenisthetic.

Kinesthetics cannot learn by just listening or seeing,they need "to do" things physically.They need to first act and then understand.Sounds cool? No its kind of stressful..because we dont have teaching methods that support such kids.Explains why i had so much trouble in classroom learning in early years of life.

There is so much that will decide how your kid fares in school.Its really upto you to either leave it to their class teachers or understand the ways of your child and help her/him.If the kid has tendency to get restless or drop things just to move in his/her seat-its a sign that he or she is kenesthetic.

They also may listen to music while learning or studying. It is common for kinesthetic learners to focus on two different things at the same time. They will remember things by going back in their minds to what their body was doing then.Can grasp concepts when abstract theories are combined with practical experience

Read on more on this interesting site on Studying style..
http://studyingstyle.com/three-learning-styles.html

Thursday, December 17, 2009

How to make a poem rhyme?

If hare was to jump like a frog
and snake was to bark like a dog.

if there were no lights in the lane
would you once dance like insane?

When will you stop behaving like a teen?
Your hair colour makes my head spin.

Enough of your inky pinky ponky,
its career you're chosing not a donkey.

if i could sell all my possessions in heaps
why would i live in an apartment so cheap?

Can i make you an omlet for breakfast
since you dont remember what you ate last.

Last time i told you one-liner so nice
you gave me the expression of rolling eyes'

Mom said if i had a child whose dad was clever
i could have taken a leave from my job for ever.

See the irony of this artist next door who cried,
He bought new brushes but his paints have dried.

Am i under any influence today?
No,its in my own spirits that i am gay

if you wondering why you're still reading this crap
go hit yourself on a hard rock.

LA LA LA LA

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Run Run Run

Lynyrd Skynrd-Lovely lines,for you A! ;)

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

I want to travel :)
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My exams are going on and my frinds/parents look more tensed than me. LOL.For one,my idea about exams have definitely changed.I dont give a damn about them anymore.This is not a BOLD statement.Nor am i flunking in my exams to be saying this :P

Just that i sometimes feel the need to rebel against the way our minds are conditioned.I suddenly have started hating the way i do things.My real test now is to see whether i am capable of changing and moving forward.Education has made me too rigid.
I need to break free,especially from the kind of fear that comes from being in situ (or stationary).
Only then will the learning come.
Only then can i enjoy my doings.

You have to run run run,
to remain in the same place.(Alice in Wonderland)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

It always works :)

'We are still friends,so what if we are out of touch.'

A very positive conversation with a good friend brings this smile on my face :)
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Have u ever noticed how some people manage to make you feel so positive just by the use of right words.Or should i say by the Avoidance of certain kind of language that makes you feel negative.It comes with only efforts.I would like to have such a way of talking.

I like to be around positive people.Positivism moves in concentric circles,it wont hit you directly,you feel it coming till it completely surrounds you.So try dropping the use of "Donts" and "buts".Use more of positive words in your conversations.It will slowly and surely make a difference in your attitude.

Keep it up friend!! ;)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Go play

13 hours of college.Add to it 4 hours of travelling.That was my Tuesday like. :)
Day started at 5.I never check what time i am sleeping :P

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Its a new day.I have a große(big in german) challenge before me of making a print ad for advertising project.ON A SHOE BRAND.Lets see what it turns out to be.I am working with such a varied mix of people.

Some are the planners of the nation,schade!!(unfortunately)they have to work for such a small project.They want to derive creativity through a planned procedure.They want to schedule whatever we are going to do,even if it is a fifteen minute activity.I am talking about an engineer.Then there are square pegs in round holes who get such great ideas but have no suggestions as to how to execute them.

Thankfully i believe and i have seen that all these random thinking processes by people do help in making a decision finally.As they say there is an order in chaos.Thats what excites me the most.Its less of a challenge,because we never thought as a child that Jumble looks "incomplete",it always used to be work-in-progress ;) So sippa hot Kafe(coffee) und Mach kein Sorgen!(dont worry) :D

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Mumbai

I love Mumbai,it throws a lot of challenges at me everyday.What i like about this place is that people try to squeeze as much of your time,space and mind as possible.It's a city where people expect a lot from you;yeah even strangers!!Some of my outstation friends complain that the people here are heartless.But i guess we all are doing a lot of things to facilitate each other in our own little ways.You cant expect someone to show his/her heart when he/she is standing on one foot in a crowded train.The same woman who stepped on your foot and dint care to say a sorry in the morning might be seen offering her seat to a girl much younger than her after sitting through half of her journey.

My examples might revolve a lot around Railways because what the heck,i travel 3 hours per day by train,meaning 4 days in a month i spend in train.Believe me i have seen crazy fights happening out of nothing in the mornings.I dont know whether it is because of the logic that people become softer by heart in evenings,i have seen them doing unexpected unspoken favours to others.Like smiling at someone(ok that was excess of sarcasm)..but believe me strangers become friends so easily.Then there will be people who have no relation with you whatsoever,but from one look at you they decide you had a bad day and offer you a seat.This can happen in no other city but mumbai.

There is nothing we do because our heart says so,its because we get into other person's shoes only when possible or convinient to us(and thats the best thing one can do for other in this mad city).
Selfish? Naah.
Self-centered? Yes.You got to be if you want to survive here.
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Production Management Test i told you about in last blog was good.

I am able to take time off my schedule to blog,that must be an indicator that my life is turning less hectic.Cheers to that!! :D

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

TEst !!!

Tomorrow is my Production Management Mid term test.We were told by our professor today that anyoneone using a supplementary' will be NEGATIVELY marked to which i couldnt resist clapping,so did a lot of other people in my class. :D

I really like the pattern set by him.Write to the point,no bullshit no big explainations...
Reminded me of my 10th std boards,when i understood only one funda of writing to the point answers.We never had "Short notes" to deal with like State Board.What i understood after going to State board and almost flunking in my Eco test that "Short notes" do not mean short;on the contrary,you are given marks on the basis of length of your answers.

Although its an open book examination, our dear prof in his very charismatic style of speaking,has made it clear that we will get screwed by the paper he has already set.So lets see what we have on our desks at 10am tomorrow.Passing is not a goal anymore for anyone of us.I just wish i am able to attempt all questions because i have for a change studied the subject!! :)
Tell you about it tomorrow.Bis dann,Tchuess!(Till then,goodbye)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Just what i needed :)

It was saturday evening around 4:30.After 6 hours of stats and research methodolgy,i bunk my accounts lecture.I walk up to Marine drive alone while the dark clouds are hanging there,they look so dense and so heavy.There is a lot of crowd at Marine Drive.Its just some fresh air i need.And maybe with the help of it,some clarity of thought will come.Last few months have been an eye opener;i had enough opportunities to realise that i dont think too clearly about most of the things.I have been taking the privelege of being an ambiguous person for too long and how i just manage to express myself!

One day you come to know that most of the times you were not expressing your thoughts too well.All this while,you thought you are expressing,but others dont think so.You just managed;maybe because you were around with the same set of people always who know you too well to misunderstand you.Its good that atleast i know what is happening.What i do with this knowledge is of second importance.(Ofcourse i will do something about it..)

So i spend some 40-50 minutes sitting there-reading; looking at the sea,clouds,birds,rocks.I suddenly felt like a child again.When i was a kid the best thing i liked doing was "nothing".I used to do a lot of it then.Gazing at far off objects.lying on grass,sitting on swings...Thinking of it now,it used to be a kind of meditation-Spending time not doing anything and more importantly not feeling guilty about it.

That makes you feel so light.Its like you are the non-bottleneck machine who doesnt need to be on roll all the time just to utilise your full capacity.
Excuse me for that example,i have been reading Goal by Goldratt.

I have been so hungry lately.Perhaps because i take short meals and get hungry again in couple of hours.So from Marine Drive,i went to Barista and ordered stuff and continued reading.I ate my heartful,read my mindful,paid the bill and walked out.Along the footpath at the bookseller,as a matter of habit,my eyes happened to gaze upon the titles.There it was "Stay hungry,stay foolish."I laughed in my mind thinking its so apt for me.Except for the other meaning of "hungry".

It was a nice start for my weekend.I hope whatever time i have,i make good use of it,even if it means doing nothing ;)I had my 'things to do' next week planned at Barista,hope i manage to do it all,"well".Idea is to feel good about what i do.

I headed for home.It was a fine evening :) just what i needed!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

What have you learnt today?

One of my professors raised an interesting question one day.Ever wondered what is the difference between "study" and "learning" processes? Its one word answer."Application".
So however well your teacher has managed to teach you a concept, you have only been sucessful enough to 'study' it,with best examples if you want to add.

You can be sure that you know it or have learnt it only when you are able to apply it.
I am yet to learn a lot of things. :)

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Who am i?

When i had nothing more to lose i was given everything,
when i ceased to be who i am i found myself,
when i experienced humilation and yet kept on walking,
i understood that i was free to choose my destiny"

Wonderful lines from Eleven Minutes,Paulo Coelho.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Tag

1.What is your current obsession?
Collecting songs.Listening to them when possible.

2. What are you wearing today?
I was wearing chudidaar in daytime.Now at home pajama n T shirt.

3. What’s for dinner?

Fav.Masoor dal and mix veg.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
Morning breakfast :P
A dozen of lose sheets.

5. What are you listening to right now?

Hai apna dil toh aawaara,na jane kispe aayega..

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?

It was more of an open invitation from Andy.She is my best friend.Do i need to say anything else? :P

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Marine Drive for all good reasons.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?

Scarf,sun-glares n sunscreen(if i go outdoors)
skirts and pajamas indoors.

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

Japan

10. Which language do you want to learn?

Chinese,Mandarin-one of them if the two are different! :P

11. What’s your favourite quote?

"Never take any Quote at its face value."

12. Who do you want to meet right now?

Oscar Wilde.

13. What is your favourite colour?

Olive green right now.

14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet?

Pink shirt.

15. What is your dream job?

Start up.Cant share the idea.

16. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?

Would make it my ATM money and would have a blast this weekend.

17. What are you going to do after this?

Assignment.

18. What are your favorite movies?

Guru.50 first dates.PS I love you...

19. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?

Gmail,yahoo,american rhetoric,Amazon,Blogger,google.

20. I believe in

Now

21. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)?

Shop or borrow.

22. Coffee or tea?

Tea from boiling pot.Coffee from machines.


23. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?

Go out alone.Avoid people and go to some open space if possible.

24. Favorite Sweet?

Chocolates

25. Favorite Season?

Winter

26. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?

MAggi since its 2am right now :P


27. What are you afraid of the most?

Off late i have observed a stage fright during presentations.Hope its just my bad luck or temporary.

28:What brings a smile on your face instantly?

A silly or genuine compliment.

29: My most priced possession.

Friendship and love.

Friday, October 16, 2009

how have you been?

hello again...
its been so long between now and then
how have you been?

i find some time i look for my pen
is that too lame?
i havent written for long
that puts me to shame.
do you feel the same?

when i cross the road with 50 or more
i feel so tiny i feel so alone
and when i see a baby cry for a toy
i know what it is like..

I look out of train and i see a mountain
its at a distance all green
i wanna go hiking
are you too game?

just tell me something
dont you ever wish you were someone else?
but then someone smiles at you
and tells you never to change..
how does it feel?

have you ever got so cold
that you missed being held
is there a reason you walking this way
you dont know where you are heading today?
do you feel the same?

uhmmm...

I feel i have lost the little interest i had in writing.
uhmm...let me tell you whats been happening in last two months.i am into an MBA program.and i am still trying to get used to it.
travel more than 4 hours a day. attend 6 to 9 hours lecture.
i eat when i get time and i sleep whenever i am home.
i meet my girl friends whenever possible and all i do is keep complaining of the little time i have to sleep.
Putting aside the less interesting things..let me share you the beautiful parts which are very interesting-
1.Making it at time for 8 AM lecture.Is it a challenge? Ohh ya!! Geting up at 5 Am when u sleep at 12 or 1 is itself one!
2.Deciding when n where is your next meal.Its mostly dabba or gaylords or Satkar.
3.A motorbike travel from thane to churchgate to make it to the lecture.Thanks Vikram,it was memorable one.
4.How can i forget the Fussball game that is THE only recreation i have sometimes.
5.Sorry for putting things in point,but some very interesting presentations i have seen in life were made by profs on PPTs.if i write in paragraphs now maybe it wont interest you.
6.Btw speaking of PPTs,we must have seen 50*2 atleast a hundred of them.ATleast.But thats not interesting,believe me.This is just a fact.
7.The good times i have with my Train Gang..they are the most interesting people to travel with.If you are walking from churchgate to VT,such interesting conversations shape up.More on it on my next blog(ooo ya suddenly i have a lot to blog!
8.Marine Drive.It is at amazing proximity.You know i observed something some days back.People who are on mumbai darshan have a new favorite.The Trident.Saw a family stop a cab to click pics in front of TRIDENT.they posed and then they got into cab and left.i was pretty amazed at that.
9.Yesterday i was coming home.saw lights everywhere..its a good feeling.I believe its difficult to remain low or feel left out during diwali.it is by far the best festival!
10.When i come hom at 11pm i am dead tired even to have my dinner.i think the best part of my journey back is the Cadbury's smell that enjoy on Thane flyover.This is one good memory that hasnt changed over years.It makes me smile like a kid again :)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Day tripper





I know I know...Its just too amazing to be posted here.
Its a new form of art called "Leyman's Art".
I am sorry,this is not up for sale yet.Some years later maybe..when ppl start understanding its value. :P

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Reading

I was never so much into reading.I have developed that habit over last few years.
I have observed that in last two years i have barely read fiction.
Since reading came in my life quite later as a habit, my fiction reading period was also short.Then there was a time when i used to read two books at a time,a strict combination of fiction and non-fiction.Now i am only invited by Non-fiction books.It has become easy reading for me.I will probably have to take efforts to read a classic.

One thing i like about non-fiction reading(i read biographies of businessmen) is that its a nice way of learning through others' experiences.An autobiography is a way of living through one's experiences,which is any day more exciting than reading some story which is part truth part imagination.Without further justifying my choice of NOT reading fiction,i will get to the point.I am trying to bring some variety in my reading.So this next month i shall read all kind of books,fiction,...non fiction...classic..contemporary.all colours and shades!!


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I showed a letter to four people today.As a part of formality they were needed to read it.I was surprised to see how much time each of them took to actually read it.In one of the cases i started counting from 100 backwards to kill time!!
If people at managerial posts take so long to read a piece of information,i wonder how they manage to do other tasks??Its a good way to test a manager i think.

Write for your sake!

Write something today,for its the way of connecting your thoughts.Thinking is a gift,when you put it down in your own words on a paper;it becomes a religion.

I am not a supporter of religion nor do i oppose it.But i do know that writing down your feelings help.Specially in two cases:
1.When you are aware of something that is in your mind.
2.When you dont know what is in your mind.

The third case where you are in between knowing and doing;trust your mind.So getting back to what i said earlier,putting down thoughts in words is becoming sure/rigid of your ideas,thats how most of the religions came into being.Quoting your thoughts is not a sign of conservatism.Its being true to yourself.

I have gone back to my older posts/diaries and found thoughts there which i will most disagree to today.But i dont regret having written them.Its just shows that i have been open to changes in my thought and attitudes as i grew up.

Write something you felt about yourself,about your loved ones.Write it daily.

Someone commented after going through my blog that i was putting out a part of myself through these posts.Wasnt i becoming vulnerable?I wonder how,keeping your feelings hidden is a sign of vulnerability.There is nothing weak or vulnerable about expressiong yourslf,your love,showing affection.Love is an ability and not a choice.You learn from your mistakes.You accept them and they are no longer mistakes.I have made terrible mistakes and i have moved out of them..and i am still trying.

:)

:)

Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.
hmmm...ya it makes me wonder!

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Consumer's call

i am not unsure;
the world is too sure.
There is perfect competition
and perfect assumptions;
and perfect criticisms.
Watch my actions
They are the only imperfections
proving that i am human
and not just an idea of a
rational consumer.
What you consider selling points
keeps me from using your product;
THE thing about it you forgot to highlight
i go around sharing on Facebook.


I think the idea of "rational consumer" is given undue attention even as a theoretical concept.The phrase should be just banned from Marketing and Economics textbooks,as it severely restricts the imagination of a manufacturer-in-the-making.

(I like the new Coke add.No atrangi avtaar of Aamir for a change!!)

And a very innovative tagline "Coke ke saath Dost free"
After seeing the add wherever i go and see the huge words on canteen stalls "THANDA matlab Coca Cola" i think of this new add.Its a cool transition from the old "Thanda" concept and has a good recall value.

Monday, February 23, 2009

You cheat!

What a rag of cloth takes off a painting
And omitted words off a letter
You,my friend steal it
from my eyes unedited,
uncensored.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

when i made God laugh

Looks like an interesting year ahead.Only time will tell, but at the end of two weeks and four days of 2009, i only get a feeling that a lot of excitement is in store for me.
Or maybe my attitude has become more of FOCG meaning focus on good things.

Some plans never work out.Some days turn out to be so exciting and adventurous,that both your hands fall short of fingers to count memories on.Last few days saw both cases, how plans fail and how excitement and company fail your plans,only to make it a more perfect day :)


Some timely quotes that came along and are stuck in my mind which best summarize my state of mind-

"If u want to make god laugh start making plans."
"Money is nothing if it cant buy you memories."
Indeed money is important, it buys you memories ,although it pinches you later to have spent beyond your limit.But who cares when memories are all worth it.

"Keep in touch" a much abused phrase these days.
But you just know they mean it when they say it.
And that makes all the difference!


This one i just framed :P
"Some waters are worth exploring.
for if you win you feel on the top of the world,
if you lose you still have a reason to celebrate."

Thursday, November 13, 2008

filhaal

pehle se likha
kucch bhi nahi
roj naya kucch likhti hai tu
jo bhi likha hai dil se jiya hai
yeh lamha filhaal ji lene de.

Gulzar

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

....Inaction.......

When there is less of action, there are few words to share.
So i'd rather borrow some words today

listening to Alon Parsons Project

'Every possible location
has a simple explaination
And it isnt hanky panky...

(thats what i am trying to do now
keep it simple.)

another line that i like:

And oh when I'm old and wise
Bitter words mean little to me
Autumn Winds will blow right through me..

When i am old and wise!!
..........................................
Sigh!!

Matter of time and you come in action!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Fiza




Yahaan Hindu Muslim Sikh Isaai Faiz Paate Hain
Ye Samandar Roz Dar Pe Deta Hai Pehra
Hai Saraapa Noor Vaala Aapka Chehra
... Piya Haji Ali...











Monday, October 20, 2008

SAve energy!!

I am talking about energy-saving bulbs here.Compact Fluorescent Lamps are designed to replace your regular incandescent lamps.

Utility : CFLs use less power and have longer rated life.Though its purchase price can be 3 to 10 times greater than that of equivalent incandescent lamp the lower energy use and extended lifetime will compensate for higher initial cost.The average rated life of a CFL is between 8 and 15 times than that of incandescents.

Drawbacks:
1.incandescents give light almost immediately upon the application of voltage. CFLs take a perceptible time to achieve full brightness, and can take much longer in very cold temperatures.

2.CFLs produce less light later in their life than they do at the start. depreciation is exponential, with the fastest losses being soon after the lamp was first used. By the end of their lives, CFLs can be expected to produce 70-80% of their original light output.

3.CFL contain small amount of mercury inside the glass tubing.This causes air and water pollution while disposal.Only 3% of CFl bulbs are properly disposed or recycled.

Interesting useful Fact:
Switching CFl bulb on for a few minutes at a time can shorten its lifespan substantially.Incase of a 5 minute on/off cycle,the lifespan of a CFL can be upto 85% shorter!
So keep it on for atleast 15 minutes at a time to mitigate this problem.

The problem is i hate reading under the CFL that i have at home,maybe coz u are used to brighter incandescent lamps.However,its a good substitute at twilight if u are not readin/writing/working.

[A similar interesting product is use of LEDs in your Diwali light strings (toran). These rice sized colourful tubes used in cluster to light up your home-fronts and balconies have become very popular in recent years.Get them before the stock gets over,diwali is around the corner! red-soft white(gloden) combo looks awesome!! :D ]

Monday, October 13, 2008

आपण कोण?

Just a crazy idea i got while crapping this morning.And i am considering giving this suggestion to Raj. Make it compulsory for all Mumbaikars to change their Orkut display names and complete profile in Marathi!!

Why not??

:P

Btw i found there r 249 communities to his name against 11 for balasaheb. uddhav(not uday :P) thakrey also showed 11 results when typed in communities.

Growing Popularity or Search for Leadership?

Saturday, October 11, 2008

OPEN TO INTERPRETATION

Hey if you are here reading this right now i would like you all to contribute whatever comes to your mind when you read this :

"Imagination is never random.Its more specific than what we actually see/repeat in reality."

Please take the efforts to post your comments, it wont take a lot of your time!! :D

From an old Notepad

I found an old notepad belonging to the days when there was so much to do that i had to make note of things(arnd 2 yrs back).I do that even today though its a little pocket size diary now-largely out of compulsion :my tendency to forget things !! :P

I had to throw away the notepad as it was my "Clear the clutter day" which means everything that is not used for past 6 months and looks redundant must be thrown away.So i had to show some courage ;) i went through the entire notepad once and thought of blogging it here so thatsomething of it remains(my Piscean side got hold of me)..

Vocablury.....A quote...Lean Production System explained wid da help of diagram(must be reading Toyota Way then)....a few advertising agencies and their addresses :D... a Simple Equation Sum (it was a riddle i guesss)...da excerpt from Shantaram that i already blogged...More corporate contacts(definitely for Enigma)..
Books To Read( surprisingly i have read them all by now)...German grammar ....Eco syllabus for F.Yr....Ratios...MCEX commodities...Derivatives and Capital markets...more Vocab!!!!

Finally I wudnt have remembered that i have actually read 'Six thinking Hats' by Edward De Bono hadnt i come across this notepad!! there's white,black,blue ,red ,yellow and Green hat!!
Take my advice,either read or re-read that book like a text book or never bother to read it at all!! i found it useless personally..

Friday, October 10, 2008

Fall

its not the number of times you stumble and fall that matters
its the number of times that you stumble and get up.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

An excerpt

There's a truth that's deeper than experience.It's beyond what we see or even what we feel.Its an order of truth that separates the profound from the merely clever and reality from perception.We're helpless usually in the face of it and the cost of knowing it,like the cost of knowing love, is sometimes greater than any heart would willingly pay.
It doesnt always help us to love the world but it does prevent us from hating the world.And the only way to know that truth is to share it,from heart to heart,just as Prabhakar told it to me, just as I'm telling it to you now.

GregoryDavid Roberts
~Shantaram

Azaan

~Poore Dil Se Agar Kuchh Naa Maango Toh Sab Kuchh Mil Jaata Hai.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

"WHY ME?"


IF YOU ASK THAT QUESTION TO YOURSELF OFTEN THESE DAYS, READ ON...

IN LOVE,ONE NEVER NEEDS ANOTHER,

ITS ONLY BY CHOICE YOU STAY CLOSE.

PROMISES ARE MADE INTENTIONALLY

WHY GET HURT IF SOME ARE UNFULFILLED

AND HOPES CAN'T REST ON SOMEONE ELSE.

AND IF YOU CRY ON YOUR LONELINESS…THINK AGAIN

WAS IT LOVE AT FIRST PLACE??

OR SOMETHING THAT HAS MADE YOU SO WEAK

THAT YOU FEAR TO BE WITH YOUR SELF!

STILL WALKING?



WE WALK TOGETHER SOMETIMES

BY THE DUSTY ROADS AND MOVING CRANES
BY GUTTERS LOADED WITH CITY DIRT
BY SHOPS THAT CLAIM OF PUBLIC TRUST


WE WALK TOGETHER AND SAY NOTHING
BY WINTER EVENINGS AND PURPLE SKIES
KNOWING NOTHING BETTER WILL HAPPEN TODAY
SO WE JUST KEEP WALKING.


WE WALK TOGETHER AND SPEAK OUR MINDS
ALONG THE ALLEY WHERE WE MEET
YOUR BIKE PARKED-BY SOMEWHERE NEAR
COZ I PREFER WE GO ON FOOT


IT ISNT A NEED NOR AN UNDERSTANDING
A SIMPLE WANT PERHAPS
AND FOR A WHILE WE DONT CARE
WHETHER WE WILL MEET SOON AGAIN..


AND WE TALK ABOUT OURSELVES
LIKE TWO BIGGEST EGOCENTRICS
CARING LITTLE OF WHAT GOES WRONG
WITH THE TOWN AND ITS CITIZEN.


TALK OF DESIRES AND SELF INTEREST
THINGS WE'LL ACQUIRE AND GOOD TASTES
IT’S BEAUTIFUL AS HELL THIS WAY
LET THIS HELL BE OURS ALWAYS!!

Elderly Woman behind the counter in a small town

I seem to recognize your face
Haunting familiar cant seem to place it
Cannot find a candle of thought to light your name
lifetimes are catching up with me

All these changes taking place,
I wish i'd seen the place
but no one's ever taken me
hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away...
hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away...

I swear i recognize your breath
Memories like fingerprints are slowly raising
Me, you wouldn't recall, for i'm not my former
It's hard when, you're stuck upon the shelf
I changed by not changing at all,
Small town predicts my fate
Perhaps that's what no one wants to see

i just want to scream...hello...
my god its been so long, never dreamed you'd return
but now here you are, and here i am
hearts and thoughts they fade...away...
hearts and thoughts they fade...away...

A lovely Pearl Jam number with beautiful guitar and lyrics!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

A Map

This is a work done with a good friend Anand who is a genious.
We both stay in same compex.And this is a map, looks difficult when u look at it but its really nothing.
That blue building is his residence and i stay in brown one,one wid pink border.The circle is a landmark and you can see the road...you can locate us near our respective buildings..


illustration by:
Abha n Anand

Photographed by :Anand

To make the map a realistic one we have added a half moon which hangs over his building sometimes,over mine other times.That depends on where you are standing while looking at the moon.

First i dint like to see the pink spots on moon,but when anand said its a 'daag' i agreed to keep it.He is very logical and i like that.So i also named da wings 'A' 'B' n 'C'.

While my bldg has five wings, his has only three.But my bldg is just four-storeyed,his is 6-7 storeyed.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Blind faiths

ABC: so hows cat preparation goin??
I: its not goin on
I: its running away from me
ABC: i still wld like to believe so
I: believe wat?
ABC: tat u will come up with bright colurs in ur cat
I: i can come up wid bright colours on a canvass if u want

LOL...

Saturday, May 03, 2008

On the surface..

she stood there in the train... her body as a matter of habit adjusted to the rythm of the train's motion... one hand holding on the dangling pedal,whose characteristic is to move to and fro.This pedal plays seemingly insignificant role in many people's lives...it carries the load of millions of wary minds day in and day out..
Age 32 something... thin brows, turned into a frowning expression(of anxiety rather than of disgust)... but the most distinct part of her expression was inevitably brought out through her almond shaped eyes.... her gaze fixed on a non-existant point,somewhere above the window she was facing...the kind of gaze that very unambiguously tells you that the person is temporarily hijacked by some attacking thought...and her eyes are absorbing nothing more than fear, concern, anxiety and more anxiety.

the eyes were moist with tears which wouldnt flow... for last few years they have surfaced too many times... however somehow have learned to stay there....floating...
sometimes threatening to be at the verge of flowing...like the living bodies hanging at the edge of the footboard of this train. minutes passed.... no pearls yet...
she looked down and using her fingers wiped-off the thought that she never takes home to her kids and family.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Achilles' heel

In Greek mythology, Achilles (also Akhilleus or Achilleus; Ancient Greek: Ἀχιλλεύς) was a Greek hero of the Trojan War, the central character and the greatest warrior of Homer's Iliad, which takes for its theme the Wrath of Achilles.
Achilles also has the attributes of being the most handsome of the heroes assembled against Troy, as well as the quickest.
Achilles's death came as divine retribution for his hubristic murder of Troilus. The Trojan boy had spurned his sexual advances and was killed by the enraged hero inside Apollo's temple.Later legends (beginning with a poem by Statius in the first century AD) state that Achilles was invulnerable on all of his body except for his heel. These legends state that Achilles was killed in battle by an arrow to the heel, and so an "Achilles' heel" or Achilles' tendon has come to mean a person's principal weakness.

According to the incomplete poem Achilleis written by Statius in the first century AD, and to no other sources, when Achilles was born Thetis tried to make him immortal by dipping him in the river Styx. However, she forgot to wet the heel she held him by, leaving him vulnerable at that spot. (See Achilles heel, Achilles' tendon.) In another version of this story, Thetis anointed the boy in ambrosia and put him on top of a fire to burn away the mortal parts of his body. She was interrupted by Peleus and abandoned both father and son in a rage

Sunday, April 27, 2008

vancouver

Vancouver is consistently ranked one of the three most livable cities in the world.According to a 2007 report by Mercer Human Resource Consulting for example, Vancouver tied with Vienna as having the third highest quality of living in the world, after Zürich and Geneva. In 2007, according to Forbes, Vancouver had the 6th most overpriced real estate market in the world and second in North America after Los Angeles.In 2007, Vancouver was ranked Canada's second most expensive city to live after Toronto and the 89th most expensive globally, and, in 2006, the 56th most expensive city in which to live among 143 major cities in the world; in the same survey, Zurich and Geneva were ranked as the ninth and seventh most expensive, respectively.In 2007, Vancouver was ranked as the 10th cleanest city in the world.
The 2010 Winter Olympics will be held in Vancouver and nearby Whistler.

One of my friends has just been to the coastline...cool naa?

Saturday, March 22, 2008

think of a....

All i want -money
all i got -this post
all i need -love

Apologies : lost the count of thermometers i broke
Admiration :what they feel for me
Acceptance : what i have for them
Advertising : fascinating career
Apple : the only brand
Allowances : travel takes it all
Alteration : not everything can be altered…you don’t get Pepe in the size of 45 :(
Associations :Mutual funds
AMFI :alternate
Adorable : saksham,my nephew
Awesome : cc and mousse
Alien :accounting standards
Archaic : with or without dust?
Activate :my sim
Amendable : everything except glass objects
Absent : CPK's lec at classes
Art : passion
Arrange marriage : ??
Accident :am scared of being run down by a two wheeler,embarassing death
All time high : no comments
Alone : silence,wonderful
Acting : inborn,natural
Ambition : fake, stolen wishes
Action : imagination
Arrogance : implied insecurity
Adventure :now and here
Anger : and Abha?!!?!...u must be kiddin :P
ATM cards : Avoid

#yashshri: so here's what you asked for....
#all : you may suggest something else,if u think u knw me well.

Really??-

manisha passed me this tag ages ago...
i wasnt blogging at that moment and later it almost got wiped off my memory~some facts about myself,NOTE: this is not open for questions,comments are allowed.
1.I love liesure....there is nothing as "work" in my dictionary...nor "job" i hate these words...because i believe if you allow them to be used in your daily life,they become the ONLY thing for which you get up each day..
2.i love sunrise and sunsets
3.i write at my own will
4.in my bedroom you will find books....i dont read them as much as i need them lying all over to make me feel comfortable..
5. Courtesy to me and my friends (Manisha, Chris) we have formed this theory named “The Intellectual Rubbish” which states that there are two types of people existing in this world : a) The intellectually dumb ones and b) the dumbly dumb ones!! Now you may ask why?? After a certain amount of observations, we came to a conclusion that everyone in this world is prone to doing something really, really dumb at some point of their lives, be it when they were alone (this is really important) or in front of everyone, at least at one point of time, they were really embarrassed na? So even if you are an intellectual, you ARE dumb!!! Understood??(All rights reserved. No part of this really short and comprehensible and “intellectual” theses may be reproduced in any form, or by any means, without permission. COPYRIGHT)
6.i cant sleep with dimmest of lamp/bulb/torches on... need complete darkness
7. I cant barter height for weight even if i ever wish to do so....will they understand???
8.I am single
9. Pungent perfumes turn me off
10.I love walking.
everyone on my fav list may take this one...

Saturday, March 01, 2008

crazzyyyyy..


She jogged the same path everyday.
Was it an hour or a spring wild-flower
Or summer sweat that kept her on the move?
Was it a rain puddle soaking into her Nike
or pool of dew drops forming on car-roof?

Perhaps it was just an idea
To get over the previous nightmare.
She jogged the same path everyday
To hear a voice loud say~


Look at that sunflower staring at your face
It sings and it dances till the sunlight wanes
It drinks and it dines with folks & friends
And sleeps like a baby in an open space

Start over a-new and over again
When the Sun comes and pokes :
“Come get up you lame!”
Don’t think hard
Say “I m game”

Do the craziest things you always wished to
Jump, cry, try and break that chain
Let the world see a reason and call you insane…

Friday, February 01, 2008

Because the sky is blue..


Because the world is round it turns me on

Because the world is round...aaaaaahhhhhh


Because the wind is high it blows my mind

Because the wind is high......aaaaaaaahhhh


Love is all, love is new

Love is all, love is you


Because the sky is blue,

it makes me cry


Because the sky is blue

.......aaaaaaaahhhh

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh....

Baby you're a rich man

How does it feel to beOne of the beautiful people?
Now that you know who you are
What do you want to be?
And have you travelled very far?
Far as the eye can see.
How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful people?
How often have you been there?
Often enough to know.
What did you see,
when you were there?
Nothing that doesn't show.
Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man too.
You keep all your money
in a big brown bag inside a zoo.
What a thing to do.

Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man too.

How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful people?
Tuned to A natural E
Happy to be that way.
Now that you've found another key
What are you going to play?
Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man,
Baby you're a rich man too.
You keep all your money in a
big brown bag inside a zoo.
What a thing to do.
Baby you're a rich man...

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Bookmark

No entertainment is so cheap as reading, nor any pleasure so lasting. She will not want new fashions nor regret the loss of expensive diversions or variety of company if she can be amused with an author in her closet. Mary Wortley

So you finally forced me to blog!( Yashshri has tagged me)
A book that made you laugh:Burnt Toast-Terri Hatcher and Inscrutable Americans.
Also my all time favourite: Power of Now-Eckhart Tolle
A book that made you cry: A Thousand Splendid Suns-Khaled Hosseini
A book that scared you: Veronica decides to die,Paulo Coelho
a line :"And all of us, one way or another, are mad"
A book that disgusted you : A Bend in the Road:Nicholas Sparks
(the dumbest of hindi movie has a better plot)
A book you loved in elementary school: The Indian Monsoon(looking for a hardcopy)
A book you loved in middle school or junior high school:Love Story(std. 10th :P).
A book you loved in high school: Illusions-Richard Bach
A book you loved in college:Eleven Minutes,Paulo Coelho.
Best line: "when i had nothing more to lose i was given everything, when i ceased to be who i am i found myself, when i experienced humilation and yet kept on walking, i understood that i was free to choose my destiny"

A book that challenged your identity : has to be ‘Power of Now’ again.
A series that you love: not applicable(never read in series)
Your favorite horror book: N.A.
Your favorite science fiction book: N.A.(gosh I should be reading more)
Your favorite fantasy:Jonathan Livingston Seagull-Richard Bach
Your favorite mystery:A Painted House,John Grisham (not read much of fiction)
Your favorite biography :Lee Iococca;and It happened in India(autobiography).
Your favorite "coming of age" book: what’s that?
Your favorite classic: Pride and Prejudice;Jane Austen
Your favorite romance book: A Walk to Remember-Nicholas Sparks

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

koi aur ka koi aur hai..

Who meri taraf nigarah rahe
Mera dhyaan jaane kahan rahe
Meri aankhon mein kai soorate
Mujhe chahata koi aur hai…


Na gaye dino ko khabar meri
Na sharike haal nazar teri
Tere des mein Mere bhes mein
Koi aur ka koi aur hai…


jagjit

Monday, December 03, 2007

At the Blisspoint 2007

Past week was a great fun...missing something you have been asking for a long time,your wish being abandoned by philosophical house of thinking that says : "you cannot have everything you wish for."

We live in the age of a king who believes "i have everything i wanted and what i dont have....i never wanted" -My stand is simple- "Greed and desire dont understand philosophy- they are stronger forces. "





Delhi trip was a great experience.You cannot learn a few things unless you are put in new situations. i have travelled too less to know i love travelling or not.but i want to see as much as i can..

so here i am in delhi and dilli ki sardi...dilli ki hindi...dilli ka metero...dilli ke munde...aay hay!! i am overwhelmed by their welcoming nature...the ready acceptibility...the simplicity of speech "arre woh file toh jara pass kariyo".

Participating is more important than winning..no thats not philosophy its da truth.and losing is a part of life...but not all losing can be justified...losing a bag full of things love and affection (sometimes u are allowed to sound cheesy) on part of your carelessness is the worst punishment you can ever give to yourself.think of it this way : i dont want you to be thinking....leave all da thinking and brooding for me...i am alright.though there was a second in my life i had lost da capacity to think.. but everything passes.

So we passed by many places...others where we waited will stick to our memory forever..the India Gate at night..the Lal Kila..Canaught place..da Sarojini market...cycle ride to Jama Masjid's "Karims"..

Now getting back to events(aah i almost forgot to say this we are here for an "Economic Fest")..there was so much of competition..and we were so unprepared,that made the whole experience worht living just once..well 'once' coz next time we will go there with best possible preparations.

Delhi without mention of its food is insane. Totally abnormal when you are there in winter.Hogging was first on our priority list.We had best delicacies from best places..thats one thing we were well-prepared for .WE (read Satsheel,Chris,Abha and Yashshri) had list of things one should eat...paranthas..kebabs(for non veggies)...halwas...paneer paranthas...lassi... ... .. ... ...
We dint know breakfast and lunches for a while....we knew we had to eat whenever we were hungry.its Delhi -everthings fair.

The freedom from having a bath is such a joy...i dint bath until someone said"You are seriously stinking dude".. then those truths and dares... studs and stares...packed autos...packed metros..blueline,redline,yellow line...up down,in and out. halts and H2Gos(mineral water)
earrings and maujdis..morning 4 bread slices with limited butter and jam..
coldest and yet filling most veg rolls..

Oh da empty streets...rashing vehicles...defeaning nights-almost terrifying silence. All-India informal Gatherings where Ahmedabad,pune,Chennai,Goa,Mumbai and Calcutta came together in their true colours...
then staring maps until we know directions by heart...we probably can tell Delhi roads and places better than Mumbai now.

The Delhi trip is going to stay in my memory forever...in scenes and smells

da childish trivals

da hugs da patch ups

night gatherings

teeth tatterings
the getting-thrown-out thrills

da bondings da pairing others up

few secrets revealed

some others concealed ...

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Monday, November 05, 2007

Post 50 Posts!! yayyy




1 month passed when i last thought of blogging..but rejected da idea wid da fear that i may sound too tired in my blog..basically wasnt doing anything worth noting.i hated my phone ringing anytime of da day...no ringtone sounded decent!! no calls worth taking..
in da meanwhile i dint realise that i have already crawled 50 posts wid "Crawl with life"..so much so to my ocassional blogging.
Much has changed now...life's a vacation.i can indulge in my leisure activities...da cell seldom rings, msd calls are rare..it feels odd,but feels good.
it feels good
feels great
someday i had to get back to blogging..
this is a nice start!!
look at that pic...i love it..!!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

innovation is God...

गजानना श्री गणराया आदि वंदु तुझ मोरया !!

One God which is beautiful in all its forms.....he's the most loveable and the sweetest!!

God of all innovations.....all inspiring.the one we all cherish!!

Friday, September 21, 2007

The best part about working with an organization is when you have supportive people. Remember people are the core organ of any organization. Everything else moves around them…along them…among them!! For a team anything is possible…without one everything is a TASK.

Monday, September 10, 2007



place: western railway
description:the boy is on drugs...a lady selling mehendi cones took notice of him

Sunday, July 15, 2007

3 simple cues..

15-07-07
Zaara is in bus at present...all day she has been attending phone calls which makes her see herself in receptionist's post for once...and she cant help pitying herself.
She did everthing possible to avoid getting hooked up to too many things.And now she is here..figuring what can be dropped..whats worth keeping."And whom was i supposed to call",before she realises she is once again drifted to the old state of confusion.Cell phone in one hand..waiting to be used...the last few days it has been overused.
And she gets a phonecall
"Sarin calling."
"hey Sarin wassup?"
"Hi Am fine..acha we have a hike on 22nd this month.Counters will be put monday onwards.So keep looking"
"Ok.thanks for informing."
"And there's one thing i'd want to ask for a survey"
"Why are you living?"
(ok is that a joke..am i ON AIR? U knw..something like dat malishka's funny show)
What?"
"Why are u living this life is da question"
"Uh...becoz...uh..life..in life there is so much to feel happy about"
"okay.good"
"What is your goal in life?"
Aah..that irksome question..not agaiiiiiiiiiiiin(dint someone tell u i am total lukha?)
"Ahem.I want to grow older more sensibly."(well not in da same words..)
"How do you see yourself 10 years down the line?"
I see myself thriving for da best... ever willing to keep improving and learning in whatever field i am!!
"Alright!Thanks again.."
"No probs.Bye."
She hangs up da phone(alrite cell doesnt need hanging up,i get tht)..

Wow!! suddenly she feels great as if a huge LOAD is now lifted up and is vanished into thin air..that was a quick revisit to her short and long term plans...she wants to own an ad agency,realisation of few other start ups she thought of...ofcourse all that after graduating.

At da moment she is NOT doing anything which falls in line with her goals...And THIS precisely is the reason of irritation..Exactly THIS!!
AAh all that shitty load was a guilt about forgetting her goals and targets. And look it took just 3 simple questions to remind her abt her priorities!!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

few hours at ccd..

Today i solved two puzzles that you get in the entertaintment section of the newspaper.The joy of getting the solutions was the sort i havent experienced enough in recent times...
Wish i could,by simple way of trial and error or substitution and little calculations simplify this BIG puzzle life is!!
In those hours,spent at a near-by cafe,staring at numbers and figures before my cuppa coffee, I learnt an important lesson ..
Never Give Up!!
At the end,many a time it pays more than you ever wanted..

Monday, June 11, 2007

beach


This coast is my time here
It is my entire life
At every corner,i have
come across beaches
some bubbly some furious
some friendly some serious,
some attacking some seducing
some silent others roaring.
all of them rushing with purpose
and a life of itself.
burdening me under
my own life's passivity-
to them i shall go
whenever i feel low,
to learn how to recede
and bounce back with vengeance.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

What is Kalaghoda??

Sharing an auto-rickshaw in Mumbai is a cordial thing that people indulge into for their monetary benefit. Its quite an easy thing, if you are determined to find a person having similar destination. Scorching May sun makes your search faster.

So I am already in an auto rickshaw now with a 24 something guy. It wasn’t surprising then that we were already busy chatting within 5 minutes. “Are you coming back from college?” he asked looking at my bag. “No I had gone to Kala Ghoda for my German class”,I replied.
“Kala Ghoda?”
I repeated affirmatively,”Kalaghoda”.
He looked puzzled and again said, “Kalaghoda?”,this time making it sound as if it was a B grade area.
I said,” Yes, why? VT….Kalaghoda.” For a guy staying in Mumbai this shouldn’t be a new thing,I thought to myself.
“Aah !! VT. I am also coming back from VT .What a coincidence”, he said.
I concluded 2 things.The guy had boarded the same train as me. That is how we met right outside the station. Second as you can see, he’s a dumb!
Then he asked which college I went to.When I answered ,he made an awful guess . “Is it an engineering college?”
“No, a commerce college.”
“I don’t know much about Mumbai. I have come from Pune”,he finally yielded (before he brings India Gate to Mumbai)
“I should’ve guessed it. So where do you stay?”
And I got all basic information (which was a LOT) out from him.
Since how long are you working?(as if important for me to know)
Two years. Since last 6 months I am working at XYZ.”(a big name in Software Industry).”I have a pickup from home.”
I couldn’t resist a laugh at this. His office was like 15 minutes walking and 5 minutes by vehicle. Still he emphasized on “pickup” as if it was da greatest benefit at his current job. Also I concluded he dint travel beyond his office, which he later himself admitted.
Today was an exceptional day when he’d to travel till VT.

“So do you like Mumbai?”(This was getting interesting!!)

And the expression his face had when he looked straight moving his head to imply negation, will not be forgotten by me for a while. It is something you don’t want to hear but at the same time get excited to hear every time from an immigrant. As if I know a secret about the city that makes me love it more. The secret is living here and calling it your OWN.

So we got down at our complex gate and divide the fare. Just before we part our ways towards respective homes, he asks, “ Can you do me a favor?”
I said, “Yeah.What is it?” He removes his cell from pocket. Now I am getting curious by every second.
“Can you help me find a house-maid?I don’t know anyone here!”
“Oh a house maid! Now this is the most difficult thing to promise. But I’ll try definitely.” After which we quickly exchanged our numbers.
“After all it’s been two years he’s lived here,” I mused to myself.” He’s not a complete dumb.”

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

थिंक शंघाई थिंक थाने

THINK SHANGHAI THINK THANE...

One thing is sure...Whoever thought of such noble idea for being displayed on as large a hoarding as possible,..is not a Thaneite.For an average Thaneite is just not in the state of noticing and reacting to such advertisements(ya i am an exception).Another hoarding says.."SOON THE PEOPLE OF THANE WILL LOOK DIFFERENT.BEAUTIFULLY DIFFERENT."
HOW DIFFERENT? Read further to know..

There's a lot happening in Thane.There is a fly-over coming up from Station to Talawpali.Of this everyone must be aware,since plans were in place looong time ago and now the work has already started.So the junta is supposed to take busses to different routes,a compulsory Thane darshan-which means the bus will halt at all possible stops before you find yourself in the Eastern side of Thane railway station!!

Ask a working or daily-commuting Thaneite today what his biggest overhead expense...?I can bet on it that 6/10 people will say TRAVEL.Which brings me back to a question i had asked a few days ago in my blog "Thane without autos".

Can you imagine Thane without autos?It was easy for a few to say YES then.But Thane at this day already feels lacking in auto nos.If you are standing near auto stand at 8:30 PM and waiting for a rik to come...you are just fooling around with your time...Go uptill Alok...even further and chances are that you still dont find a rik-wala wanting to oblige you in exchange for meter fares.(Though there are manyy autos in this area..no one wants to drive it seems)
If you are smart enough you will ask for "share" seat kaa bhaav...to which he will reply "Bees rupya"(as on 30th May 2007)..who knows??their prices will shoot up like Infosys share prices overnight!

Or better still walk upto Talawpali lake and find a ghoda-gaadi!They are still cheaper i hope!!And what about these legendry Thane kaa HORSE-carts?Where will they go when flyway curves down at Talawpali...or will they still be there?
Only time will unfold these mystries,for i no longer believe that we have some anything like "CITY PLANNER"...to take care of these nitty-gritties of development.

Thane is developing at fast rate no doubt.But most of it is at the expense of its people.For living in a city where you cant even afford to find yourself the basic means of transport(read it busses or riks)..can be at times frustrating.More of so in monsoon...be prepared for paying auto wala anywhere between 20-50 per seat,or am i underestimating their union power?

क्या बात है....वाह वाह !!

how did this happen?!?!

lolzz...yeh hindi lipi kahaan se aai?
Well,things dont always go the way you have planned.Finest example is before you.I had intended to write a blog on my city Thane,how it looks these days...and when i typed "Thing Shanghai think Thane"...it came before me in Devnagari script(plain hindi).But the sentence looked wierd in Hindi...contrary to what it looks on those hoardings put at every junction of this city.So i changed the title.And wrote this blog just for the heck of it!

kya baat hai...waah waah..

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

looking forward to..

I became 19 yrs a few days ago-received my best gift.Thnx andy,I couldn’t have thought something as creative, even if I had thought….well,I wouldn’t have taken efforts to see it through.That’s modest Abha talking.This year my Birthday was a smooth day the way I wished it to be…had a quite time listening to music,played guitar, received calls all day long, and very wittily dodged the question of “where’s the treat?”, by saying “no celebration this time, for a change”.But cutting the cake was inevitable,so for a change I cut two cakes this time…(cousin got one unknowingly).
Then there was a long drive to a place which was called,I don’t remember what its called,we had dinner,drove back home.The day ended and I was satisfied the way it went about.
One sure thing is that I am going to have a great year ahead. I don’t know why I feel so,but had a rough time in 2006.I have faltered a lot,but then who says faltering is bad.I have learned a great deal about almost everything in just one year.
So what do you think is the greatest development that will make year 2007…other than Moeser Baeier selling DVDS and VCD’s at rates of current pirated cds? And
Bollywood’s biggest tie of wedding(Abhiash)?

Sunday, March 25, 2007

A time to sing...

To everything
Turn, turn, turn
There is a season
Turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under Heaven
A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything
Turn, turn, turn
There is a season
Turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under Heaven

A time of love, a time of hate
A time of war, a time of peace
A time you may embrace
A time to refrain from embracings

To everything
Turn, turn, turn
There is a season
Turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under Heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time for love, a time for hate
A time for peace, I swear it's not too late

To everything
Turn, turn, turn
There is a season
Turn, turn, turn

wanting,having,loving,bullshit!!

what when all the right things happen at wrong times.........?
NOTHING...you learn to appreciate time and move on!!
Day in n day out,i am blessed with wishes and love that ppl wround me have to offer...they wish i have what i love n love what i have....to always want to live more,never having to live to want more...where does all of it get me?

At the end of the day i gotta believe in myself,because if i dont,i may not believe in the best of words of my best friends,though they are truly genuine.
So let me put it flat...

Work till i am able to say..
"I have all that i wanted and what i dont have,i never wanted."

i knw ppl have heard this b4 by King of Bollywood..but those who read my blog,know that i sometimes quote other ppl...SOMETIMES!!

Understanding the irrelevent...

Read at ur own risk,...its awful piece i have here....

All this for love, they say
But who is to pave the way,
when the roads are shadowed
and there's darkness in the ray?

Excuse me but there's no regret
there's still much adventure left
I always keep my sails ready
My life is as calm as waves..

Loneliness is mind's desire,
is not always akin to sadness
when deafening silence begins to roar ,
The world has an easy reach to the shore

I shall always seek for god's
helping hand , for crutches are too worldly,
Faith is synonymous to oneself
deniers will know they've lost their pride!

Searching answers in shallow depths ,
is anchoring your boat in desert soil
You need to plunge into deepest wells
to quench your thirst for a while.

Life is spilt in blues and greys
and others that cant be discerned
But as i lay and think, the memories
appear in an unframed potrait unclear.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Get back baby..

So many times
i have sold myself to the unknown...
just to learn a few tricks of the world!
it pained me deep and i cant bear it more
when you said "Grow up baby,its a wide wild world."
this one's for You baby....

I have lived your dreams
And you shaped some of mine,
Said together we will chase them
Till the end of time.you said
Come what may,”I’ll stand by you”,
And today my heart aches to see a broken You.

A year without you seemed like a long decade,
My hope got stronger but my thoughts decayed.
Am sick and tired of losing and getting the boos
But I am ready to try again whenever you say “abhu”

It’s a painful journey,the fact is sour,
I say “hold on boy”,you’ve come so far
You say “haven’t taken the journey I’d intended to,
Again I am left speechless by a broken you.

I live life with no plans in advance
Pretended wise while taking a chance,
I love to follow my instincts,they’re often true..
This time I wont take a chance,I wont get screwed,
I promise to god I’ll get back YOU.

defence mechanism

wierd things occur at certain moments of your life,leaving you undecided ...putting you in a state wher you ask self "why i did this at first place"....sometimes things dont go about the way they were meant to be and you consolingly say to yourself,"maybe it wasnt just meant to be?".....maybe Lord had wanted it some other way....maybe this or maybe that....anything but what you had intended too!!

We call it DEFENCE MECHANISM(ya da one we leant in FC).So when i write a blog in da flow of emotions this morning and order "publish"...blogspot thinks a lot and is apprehensive to accept my post,inspite of my several appeals by way of "refresh" option.and i give up finally after realising that my post is lost in the process..you can only imagine my disappointment if you a blogger yourself.
some might say that they are not a dumb blogger not to have written in word first!!
but the point is to make myself feel better or less pathetic,i conclude by saying "this wasnt meant to be!the post i had written was too personal,maybe its good in a way,now that its erased forever.i anyways saw my purpose by welting out my feelings...."blah blah blah...
aur is tarah mera emotion bhara blog bali chadh gaya.
humans err...and given that blogspot allow so many of them to confess here...yeh ek galti aapko(blogspot ko) maaf!!

Sunday, February 25, 2007

honeymoon travels ltd

a nice 2 hours fun-packed movie,light entertainment with good discretion of characters.great direction.....a must see movie,speciaaly just b4 your exams,to ease a bit.it leaves you with no hang over...its no take away,but while you are seated in theater,its a total 2 hour dhamaal...i couldnt help laughing even at the silliest of jokes(if there were any)...

well you see, maths has made me so mentally numb,that before the movie started,i declared to my friends that every joke has to be laughed upon!
but that was inevitable....all had fun!

And i loved each part of it(big deal...a 2 hr movie)...u just keep asking for more..and how lucky u feel when u get it--movie had arjun rampal's stunning entry for a bonus"!!
it was a flawless movie until da moment Diya Mirza calls Arjun aloud..."JIGNESSH"!!
but apart from that a good movie!
and i am in ove with da song "aisa mera pyaar hai"...will be humming it for some days now..more so while doing maths.